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Since we need a post in here and all [24 Jan 2005|01:20am]

I have a bruise on each one of my thighs from my latest sex session, and my clit is actually rather sore. Just thought everyone would like to know.

It's late and I got class tomorrow, I shall post details tomorrow. Goodnight lovers, goodnight.
( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

~*Cam Whoring*~ [08 Jan 2005|04:50pm]

[ mood | mischievous ]

Yay for new pics and new liner!!

A Theif, A Whore, and A Liar...Collapse )

( 3 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

the blade [27 Dec 2004|07:21pm]

[ mood | naughty ]

I've only recently come to terms with being a masochist. i havent let anyone know yet. I've cut for about a year, but i always thought i was cutting because of depression or something terrible like that... but about a week ago, i was bored as hell and started cutting my stomach.. 'just a little' i told myself. but once i started i couldnt stop. the blade kept tickling more nerves and finding a better spot. i have cuts all over my stomach and a few above my breasts.
I've only ever cut by myself. i cut again a couple days ago. ive never let them bleed too much, cuz i found that they heal less visibly when they bleed less. but it frustrates me sooo much if they dont bleed at least a little. i want to cut more and more... find a sadist, or even another masochist near me.. but for now i am in the shadows. but wow how my heart races when the blade shimmers in the dim light of my room :):):)

~i like it better when it hurts~

( 1 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

A story--December Night [14 Dec 2004|01:41am]

[ mood | lovesick ]

Title--December Night
Rating--R, but it starts off sort of fluffy
Summary--A fallen angel finally comes clean to the one he loves, only to find she is not what she seems.
Warnings--Light bondage, SM, anti-christian undertones
Read more...Collapse )

( 1 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

[12 Dec 2004|06:53pm]

Well. If I had my recent pictures online I would post them too. So, as soon as they are up (a few days) I too will make a picture post. Muahahahahhaahha. Beware my children. BEWARE
( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Pic Post [11 Dec 2004|10:00pm]

[ mood | flirty ]

I was going through both of my photobucket accounts today so I could resend a close friend my pictures, and I found some old good ones I had forgotten about. I think they belong here.

Blast from the fetishy pastCollapse )

Coming soon: much more recent pictures, once my3pagefiction and I get together in person again, and my fetish dictionary. It will include things I've roleplayed or wish to roleplay and general turn ons.

This is your fearless fetishy leader, signing out!

( 6 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Hello, I'm new. [11 Dec 2004|08:39am]

[ mood | lonely ]

I'm Rayah Newman (or Mordred Sade), and as my username implies, I am a sadist. There's just something about biting someone, cutting someone, tying someone up, and knowing that they like it...even in my fantasies, the sight of blood on a woman's breast is exhilarating. I haven't had sex with anyone yet, but I know I am a sadist because I know what turns me on--and pain for pleasure is one thing that does.
For a while I was proud of it, but I made the mistake of telling my therapists and my mother. They told me that I was a pervert and a sociopath for having such sexual daydreams. For a while, I squashed down those desires, but they came back to bite me in the ass.
I have three imaginary friends who represent elements of my life, embodied in stuffed animals. I started having sex with the one named Dana, and my sadistic urges came back like wildfire. I also started fantasizing about my friend named Emily, who I will never have in a million years, much less get into SM with. She's straight as an arrow, and only likes me as a friend. I can never tell her of my dreams about her, or she might be frightened off. I don't want to lose her. She means a lot to me as a friend, and (secretly) as someone I am in love with.
I am beginning to come to terms with the fact that I'm a sadist, instead of seeing it as a perversion. For now, I fantasize, I have SM sex with stuffed animals (pretending they are humans), and when the time comes when I find someone who loves me and is a masochist, then I'll love her in return, and hopefully get to fulfill both our desires. I'll keep it safe and consensual, set limits and "stop" words, and I'll learn beforehand what places not to bite or cut. I'm only fifteen now, so I have a long life ahead of me in which I hope I can come to terms with my loneliness.
I'm not a goth, by the way. I'm a punk, and I'm a transexual (in my case, a male born in a female body.) I used to be a goth, but after realizing that there were too many incompatible aspects about that lifestyle, I figured out I was more punk than goth.
So, um...hi. I'm new.

( 2 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

[16 Nov 2004|10:52am]

[ mood | mischievous ]

I am in dire need of a new non default background for my lj. I want a hot vampire background so I was wondering if anyone had any vampire pictures? I am looking on google but it is proving mostly unsuccessful. So if you have any, email them to me if you will. :) It would be much appreciated. Thank you. :)

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

[12 Nov 2004|09:49am]

[ mood | artistic ]

Hello everyone. I see no one has posted here lately and I was just thinking, we should probably make some banners for advertisment. I mean, the community could use some growth ( I love new people) and I was just wondering if anyone had photoshop skills ( I certianly don't) and could maybe make some banners or something? I think it would be a good idea. Anyone else have thoughts?

( 1 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Piercing [08 Nov 2004|01:21pm]

[ mood | sore ]

Apparently I cried so much last night that the hole in my nose got sealed with all the stuff. I attempted to put my stud back in a bit ago and had quite a bit of trouble. After about 15 minutes of struggling with it, it is finally in again. And now my nose will not stop bleeding and is a bit sore.

Man, this hott.

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

[07 Nov 2004|07:58pm]

I officialy declare Saturday, the first official day of Shin being in Tampa, the CRYSTAL JESSE SHIN ORGY. It will be held at the holiday inn (room yet to be announced) on Florida Ave in Tampa at aproximatly noon until 7AM that following Sunday. All are welcome to join *grins* but Jesses cock and Shins breasts are mine!

Ps- my mom gave me a piece of dubble bubble - dubble bubble is teh sex!
( 3 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

[07 Nov 2004|03:56pm]

[ mood | horny ]

I love my breasts so much. Because you all needed to know that. Well, I do, and they are nice and firm/soft and makeme happy.

( 5 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

boredome kills... see that dead girl in the corner? [06 Nov 2004|01:34pm]

I was bored and I have MANY issues so...

Eighteen Candles : My picture archive

Its pretty sexually oriented. All comments appriciated!

Xposted to vampygirls <-- join it!
( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

As Promised [06 Nov 2004|10:19am]

[ mood | creative ]

As I promised, two pictures of my lovely bruises up face. Laura took them for me a matter of minutes ago, I uploaded them, and here they are for your viewing pleasure:

No stranger to reality...Collapse )

And there you have it. Maybe I'll do more like that once Crystal and I meet up.

( 9 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

X posted to "vampygirls" [04 Nov 2004|01:07pm]

[ mood | Many many things. ]

Well, I came up with a new fnatasy while getting myself off a little bit ago and I didn't feel comfortable expressing it in my personal journal, so I figured where better than in my sex communities?

Here is goes, but it is under a livejournal cut in case people don't feel the need to read it.

Fantasys are funCollapse )

( 7 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

^_^ [04 Nov 2004|01:35pm]

[ mood | pleased ]

I'm glad to see the community up and running so well. Unfortunately I cannot read anything under LJ cuts or view comments at the moment. Stupid school surf control. But I can assure you that once I get home and get all the manual labor over with, I will be throughly checking out everything.

Coming soon: pictures of my bruised up face. Though it was not done by a lover, I still find it incredibly hot and I like how it looks with eyeliner and black lipstick. I honestly find bruises very pretty. Anyone else agree? Well, I should have the pictures up here by Saturday.

Later my morbid lovers

( 7 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Other Story... [04 Nov 2004|02:35am]

[ mood | depressed ]

Introducing an older story... has a little more plot...

24hr RevelationCollapse )

( 1 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

[03 Nov 2004|10:36pm]

[ mood | mischievous ]

Well, I just joined this community and I found out about it through the community "vampygirls" and thought I would join. Since I see that many of you are also in that community, I shall get straight to the point.

I just wanted to say somewhere that I am excited that I am soon buying a corset and I am debation between blood red and black. I wanted to know if any of you had thoughts on brands, places to get them, etc. I am looking at a few from Fredricks of Hollywood and they are quite nice, but I was also think I might want a traditional one. Hm. I love corsets. I have noticed that when wearing one, you just FEEL sexier. And fishnets as well. They are just a sexy item to have. So, I was wondering about that stuff.

Also, I was wondering if anyone else here has a thing for blood? Like actual blood lust. Am I think only one who finds it incredibly erotic? God... just thinking about it is hot. Yum.

PS: Does anyone find that certian music just puts them in the mood? Like, for me, it is Marilyn Manson, Godhead, NIN, Orgy and stuff like that. I just find everything about it hot. Just curious :)

Let me know if you have thoughts.

( 12 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Oh... other story i've been sitting on... [02 Nov 2004|08:51pm]

[ mood | creative ]

I have a thing for writing... I like that fantasy world i go into... This is my latest completed story...

A Moment's RestCollapse )

Tell me what you think... :D

( 15 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

I got a post... [02 Nov 2004|08:45pm]

[ mood | naughty ]

So its my birthday tomorrow... yay! Im gonna live out my fantasy! I have a very repressed sex life at the moment... but tomorrow i get the rape fantasy of mine played out cuz its my birthday...

But thats' not the point... I've got a post... the beginning of a story... tell me what you think... :D

Beginning of this EndCollapse )

( 6 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Rawr [02 Nov 2004|08:16am]

[ mood | frustrated ]

Livejournal is currently anally raping me. I messed up with two of the pictures in my last post, and for the life of me, cannot seem to get back to edit the entry and fix it. So fuck it, here's the two that are missing:

The OthersCollapse )

If you hadn't noticed, I changed the link colors. The black worked well on the red, but black against black? Yeah, wasn't working for me. I know the purple is a little weird on the red, but it's not too bad, is it? If anyone has suggestions for the link colors, I'm open.

Keep the faith,

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Pic post [02 Nov 2004|07:39am]

[ mood | flirty ]

Who knows why it took me this long to realize, but this morning I realized I haven't posted any pictures of myself. So, for your viewing pleasure:

Oh look! It's me!Collapse )

I think that's all for now. You're bound to be seeing quite a few more entries from _shesbleeding and I within the next few weeks. I will most likely be making two more entries sometime today.

So let's keep this community going, no? Pictures, a dictionary of your fetishes, stories or scenarios... anything goes.

Your fearless leader,

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

new pictures [23 Oct 2004|09:51pm]

[ mood | amused ]

and because you all want to pretend you care... +3 terrible new pictures.

as my memory fades...Collapse )

And I promise to update with a new fetishy Xpirence the DAY i get back to Tampa *wink*

Ps- Congrats to my wonderfull girlfriend Shin on her pregnancy. I know we're going to be two very happy mommies!

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

okie... its about time i said hello.... [21 Sep 2004|05:12pm]

[ mood | giddy ]

Im Vivien... Im living in Montreal, Canada with my parents and I hate it because it poses a whole bunch of boundaries that i would rather not have...

Im an up and coming goth girl, beginners for me.. And I love the goth world, love to dance and drink... only mixed drinks not beer... and... I think i love sex. Im into rough stuff, biting, being tied up and ... umm... what else... hair pulling... damn... i like that lots.

I love the feeling of being touched through fishnet or having nails being run down my back. And according to my friends, Im a sucker for any sucker who bites my neck... On a second note...

I like anything Anne Rice, especially her Vampire world and her Erotica, and I think that Vampires are one of the coolest creatures in the world. Very sensual, If i were bitten by a vampire, I'd get off on it... Oi me... *blush*

Anyways.. this is my little intro... :D Now I just gotta learn to post pics and stuff in LJ cuts...

Later Duudes...

( 2 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Heh. [20 Sep 2004|11:35pm]

Might as well post.
So.. dark fetishes? As in.. 'being abducted, taken advantage of, tied up, bitten and cut open, and then having someone pour ice cold water over me' kind of dark? If so, then count me in.
Uhm. I am Katie. I like being scratched like a crazy mofo. There's just a certain feel to it.
So yeah. The community is no longer dead. W00t.
( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Hah! [20 Sep 2004|11:54pm]

[ mood | artistic ]

I got it! Lovely background picture. Took me three tries and having to upload it to my own server to get it there, but it is there. I wouldn't mind it being a bit bigger, but for now it will do.


It makes me hawt. Very hawt indeed.

( 3 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Hello Everybody... [20 Sep 2004|02:14pm]

[ mood | blah ]

Hello All. My name is Crystal and I'm a vamp-a-holic (All: HI Crystal!). Sorry I haven't posted sooner, but I figured I would take this time to introduce myself...

I'm a seventeen year old female from Tampa Florida currently staying in Upstate NY for the next month and a half. I'm the co-mod of this here little community along with our all mighty fearless and powerfull leader bleedblackblood, and also the mod at vampygirls. (shameless plug: JOIN VAMPYGIRLS OR I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN)

My biggest fetishes of course including vampires, biting, small amounts of blood, and suffocation, as well as power and handcuffs or basicly any form of light bondage. I guess I will use this post to start of talking about one of the many times my ex boyfriend and I have role played. Maybe this will spark a discussion?

Partner: 17 year old male, was with 2 years.
Setting: My bedroom in Tampa Florida
Subject: Suffocation
There were many times Jesse and I liked to role play and try different things. We often did the "bad boy gone good" act and on occasion even the innocent little cheerleader... but one of the times that I really enjoyed myself was aproximatly 3 months into dating. I really felt like I could tell Jesse anything and confided in him all of my fetishy dreams. It wasn't long after that we began role playing my beloved Jesse having an affair with a girl I hated most... his bestfriend, Venessa. During this little game we would be sleeping side by side on my bed, as a married couple would. I would slowly creep up and out of the bed, and gently place a pillow overtop of him.... pressing it down onto his face, suffocating him as best I could. At first he would fight, really try to break away, kicking and pushing as I pushed down onto the pillow harder. Soon he would take his hand and blindedly try to brush my cheek, as if saying he loved me and was sorry. He then gave into me and allowed me to continue smothering him until he could no longer survive.

Of course this was all a game, and Jesse didn't really die (unfortuneatly) but something about this really turned me on. And nobody was even naked! Ha.

I thought for the longest time maybe there was something wrong with me that made me enjoy this type of thing... then Whinnie explained to me what she thought. She told me she belived this could be because I liked the aspect of Power. Knowing that the person I loved would give in to what I had planed for them. I think this is very much so what I was feeling and why I do like such a game. But I would love to hear others takes on the mater.

Well... I guess that's all for now. Love! -Crystal

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Hmmm... [20 Sep 2004|01:58pm]

[ mood | thoughtful ]

You know, after posting an entry in this journal, I think I rather enjoy this layout, it looks very nice. I just need to get the background image working and I will be happy.

Don't let me be the only one posting here, post something. Even if it's just a hello and small introduction. People won't want to join if we aren't active!

( 2 Fatal Kisses ( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

Welcome :D [18 Sep 2004|11:16am]

[ mood | working ]

Well, this is our grand community so far. We're both working on it faithfully. LJ just seems to enjoy fucking with us lately. So don't expect the layout to look like this forever.

So, why don't we get the word out about this community? Make a link to it in your journals, see how many of your friends are interested in us. To do this, simply use:

>a href="URL of this journal"/a<

Obviously reverse the < > though. I had to use them like that so I wouldn't create a link. That wouldn't help anyone learn how to do so, now would it?

If anyone would like to talk with me or Crystal, leave a comment with your screen name. We both have privacy on and need your screen names for you to be able to see us.

Our contact info is as follows:


AIM: VampiricMazohyst
Yahoo: decayingdesperatedreams


AIM: Br0k3nM0rals
Yahoo: LjAddict

I think that's about all for now. Once we get more members, let the fun begin!

( Kiss Me, Kill Me, Love Me )

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