daddy little girl with bear


new to the community.
there are a couple of you here who are 'more than familiar' with me and my odd collection of desires.

IRL, i'm married....happily married...but he's also lost his sex drive. perfect husband, i find live journal, and a way to 'safely' express my deep, dark fetishes.

onto the fun part.....i'm definitely submissive. but wanting of a more 'loving' relationship. i want to be dominated, HURT even, but by a loving 'father figure'. i want the naughty. the chatting where you force my 'young' body to take the pain of your torture....driving me to NEED your touch...your pain. nothing's 'too much' beyond the realm of imagination.

just remember, it's only fantasy. i'm not a supporter of actually interacting this way with a child.

if you're interested, come check me out on any im - obselizabeth.....
I'm Yours

It's been awhile.

Well I haven't posted in a long time. Kinda forgot about this community. I have a poem for those who come to read. I do hope you like. Ta ta.       
                                         Domination of Weakness


I sigh at the thought of my images

How much pain can you take?

You lay there with a tease

Begging for a touch, but then you disagree


I bite down on your fingers

As you touch what cannot be controlled

You continue to go on with your game

I summit and begin to fold.


Feed on my fantasies.

Loving every feeling.

You’re amazed

You are barely believing


Master I am

Slave you are.

My commands you must obey

No matter how bizarre



Do you beg for more?

Are you enjoying it all?

Are you my love whore?


Exploring your body with

Nothing more then an oral vision

Hitting the spot

With exact precision


Dreams become reality

As you look into my eyes

And you see a whole new

Twisted side of me


You moan and twitch

I give it one final kiss.

With one last scream,

Our love can now be seen.


November 3rd, 2004

© Diego C. Gonzalez

how I feel

Introductory post, kind of

Hi...I joined this community a while ago, while I was using a different username (mordred sade.) Damn, how things have changed since then. I'm still a sadist, by my definition of the word, but the more I learn about "BDSM," the more concerns I have about that part of my sexuality. These concerns are why I'm posting again.

First of all, it seems that "real" sadomasochism is all about power exchange. Power exchange, to me, is a complete turn-off--it's the pain (and the marks it leaves) that I really go for. I'm mainly concerned because 1) I don't want people to think I'm a sicko for wanting to leave my sex partner bleeding and/or bruised by the time we're done getting it on, and 2) I don't know if there's any human being in the world that actually gets aroused by physical pain without needing any domination or submission. I think it's called algolagnia, but nothing's been written about that since the 1920's. Did algolagniacs suddenly cease to exist?

I have a boyfriend now, but he's not really a masochist--he has a high pain tolerance though, and lets me do things to him, but it's somehow disappointing knowing that he's not enjoying it the same way I do.

Sometimes I feel completely alienated, but then again, sexual guilt is the story of my life.