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introduction [06 Dec 2006|03:37pm]

new to the community.
there are a couple of you here who are 'more than familiar' with me and my odd collection of desires.

IRL, i'm married....happily married...but he's also lost his sex drive. perfect husband, except....so i find live journal, and a way to 'safely' express my deep, dark fetishes.

onto the fun part.....i'm definitely submissive. but wanting of a more 'loving' relationship. i want to be dominated, HURT even, but by a loving 'father figure'. i want the naughty. the chatting where you force my 'young' body to take the pain of your torture....driving me to NEED your touch...your pain. nothing's 'too much' beyond the realm of imagination.

just remember, it's only fantasy. i'm not a supporter of actually interacting this way with a child.

if you're interested, come check me out on any im - obselizabeth.....
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Means to an end [18 Oct 2006|05:22pm]

A little story, still in the making. But really an excuse to introduce a theory about predatory behavior, and a proposed connection to sexual gamesmanship.

The Point of No Escape. Warning: threatened genital mayhem of a graphic nature, potential sexual torture. Don't read this if you're squeamish and don't try this at homeCollapse )
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Ruminations on super-villainesses [03 Aug 2006|05:55pm]

Spandex. Big hair, big eyes, long legs, spandex. Fancy “lairs”, tricks and traps and everything made pretty, shiny and sexy. And it’s all meant to hide the death’s-head lying just beneath the surface.Collapse )
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The Grassy Knoll [20 May 2006|10:39pm]

With Angela on a grassy knoll. I’ve been weeding all afternoon, in a secluded section of the condo complex, wearing my polyester landscaper’s uniform. I’m nineteen. I’m hot, sweaty, and stiff. . . . and I have no idea who this girl really isCollapse )
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It's been awhile. [12 May 2006|10:21pm]


Well I haven't posted in a long time. Kinda forgot about this community. I have a poem for those who come to read. I do hope you like. Ta ta.       
                                         Domination of Weakness


I sigh at the thought of my images

How much pain can you take?

You lay there with a tease

Begging for a touch, but then you disagree


I bite down on your fingers

As you touch what cannot be controlled

You continue to go on with your game

I summit and begin to fold.


Feed on my fantasies.

Loving every feeling.

You’re amazed

You are barely believing


Master I am

Slave you are.

My commands you must obey

No matter how bizarre



Do you beg for more?

Are you enjoying it all?

Are you my love whore?


Exploring your body with

Nothing more then an oral vision

Hitting the spot

With exact precision


Dreams become reality

As you look into my eyes

And you see a whole new

Twisted side of me


You moan and twitch

I give it one final kiss.

With one last scream,

Our love can now be seen.


November 3rd, 2004

© Diego C. Gonzalez

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Black Aria [12 May 2006|06:45am]


More...Collapse )
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Sardines [18 Apr 2006|09:08am]

On pussy patrol, looking for the last two lock-ins who have yet to return from the game of Sardines that ended with lights-out, David Tull, reluctant camp counselor, searches for the inevitable holdouts.
. . . but who's hunting who?Collapse )

Cross-posted a bit.
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Introductory post, kind of [01 Feb 2006|08:18pm]

Hi...I joined this community a while ago, while I was using a different username (mordred sade.) Damn, how things have changed since then. I'm still a sadist, by my definition of the word, but the more I learn about "BDSM," the more concerns I have about that part of my sexuality. These concerns are why I'm posting again.

First of all, it seems that "real" sadomasochism is all about power exchange. Power exchange, to me, is a complete turn-off--it's the pain (and the marks it leaves) that I really go for. I'm mainly concerned because 1) I don't want people to think I'm a sicko for wanting to leave my sex partner bleeding and/or bruised by the time we're done getting it on, and 2) I don't know if there's any human being in the world that actually gets aroused by physical pain without needing any domination or submission. I think it's called algolagnia, but nothing's been written about that since the 1920's. Did algolagniacs suddenly cease to exist?

I have a boyfriend now, but he's not really a masochist--he has a high pain tolerance though, and lets me do things to him, but it's somehow disappointing knowing that he's not enjoying it the same way I do.

Sometimes I feel completely alienated, but then again, sexual guilt is the story of my life.
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[08 Nov 2005|12:50am]

[ mood | predatory ]

New boyfriend = amazing sex.

I just thought I'd gloat to everyone. : ) <3

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Homoeroticism in Batman? Really? [26 Oct 2005|08:53pm]

Caught a video clip from an old 60’s TV Batman episode. The Riddler has Robin on a conveyer belt, with the inevitable buzz saw at the end of it. As The Riddler’s minions, including a pretty young woman, watch gleefully, he gloats over his very youthful-looking captive.

How did I not see this the first time around?Collapse )
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[13 Oct 2005|11:56pm]
I've always had a thing for unbirth I think I can trace it back to a family friend we had when I was like 6 and they had a daughter my age (oddly exactly my age born 5 minutes after me) anyway we did the normal "playing doctor" and all that and talked about getting married when we grew up you know kid stuff as innocent as playing house but I had weird thoughts or dreams I can't quite recall but I imagined just crawling inside her and staying with her for a few days or so just huddled warm inside her and always found it comforting I just wish it were in fact possible.
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My Deathtrap History, Part II: Smothered [27 Sep 2005|10:40am]

Lying beneath the spike, watching the clock tic away and struggling for my life, had been mildly diverting. But it was over too fast, and it was too easy to escape to be taken seriously as peril. On reflection, I realized that the appeal of the TV-show deathtraps I had enjoyed most had always revolved around anticipation: the “kill” itself would be anticlimactic. The threat and prolonged struggle were what counted. The peril should take some time, and if possible should be slow-acting: a long, desperate struggle culminating in slow and picturesque death, the victim (me) put down gently but inexorably.
This all happened as described, but it was incredibly stupid.Collapse )
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My first deathtrap [26 Sep 2005|02:32pm]

Maybe I should call this "the danger of too much Batman on TV".

Kids! Don't try this at homeCollapse )
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Bruises and torture [22 Jul 2005|11:17am]

[ mood | accomplished ]

Last night my boyfriend had me pinned to the bed, while he fingered me for hours, drawing me to I don't even know how many orgasms. He sat there staring into my eyes the whole time and all I could do was moan and beg for mercy, but it was definitely one of those situations where no means yes, then again there is no way I could fight him even if I really didn't want it. I don't mean that he would rape me or anything, after all it's impossible to rape the willing, and with one touch I am always willing for him. He's trying to cut back on his biting, my breasts and thighs are covered in buises, huge dark purple ones, I should be upset about them, but the pain when he's making them feels so amazing and I have these dirty little feelings afterwards that I am officially his because I'm covered in his marks... Even right now as I sit at work, thinking about this, and the sweet suffering I am going to do tonight, I am so horny, I don't know if I can make it until I get back to his place, I may end up jumping him outside tonight, maybe on the riverbank, we can fuck in the bushes....

I was going to toss in some pics of my bruises but didn't know if anyone was interested in seeing, they make me happy personally ;) -- *hugs* Shrug

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[17 Jul 2005|10:28pm]

[ mood | horny ]

i know what i love to do to myself, alone.. oooo.. but is it the same when someone else 'does it' to you?
i have been alone and loveless for over a year now and it really sucks... maybe on a campus of over 40,000 people i'll find somebody.. anybody.. god, im sounding desperate...

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Promotion [02 Jul 2005|11:53pm]

[ mood | artistic ]

For anyone who is bisexual or a lesbian in this community, I just applied to a great community, Pretty Lesbians Check them out.

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I need some dark minds..... [12 Jun 2005|04:03pm]

[ mood | curious ]

Hey ,  I was wondering if ya'll could help me in make up a name for  a fanlisting of mine.
I dont know if any of you is into animation, but have you heard or seen a show called 'Trigun.'? 
Anywa yI'm making a Knives Millions (physcial) (sp?)  Fanlisting. Meaning it's about his smexy body and stuff.
but what name would discribe a man like him? He's pretty crazy/cold/Manical-genocdial killer of humans/ and bascialy just a devil himself XP

If anyway you know who I'm talking about, please help ^^;;

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[31 May 2005|02:03am]

Oh, and if anyone ever wants to friend me, do it under badmindbad .
That's my more fetishy fantasy journal (It's friends-only for that reason!).
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[31 May 2005|12:16am]

Well I'm new.. love this community and am so glad it's active.
I have some dark fetishes.. have since I was small, actually. I embrace them, though I keep them to myself, mostly. You'd probably never guess of my love of darker things by looking at me (Well, aside from the black hair and eyeliner, possibly).
Lots of repressed badness in my head, mostly centering around rape, and humiliation, and corrupted innocence. Nothing too terribly original, but so hot..
Fear arouses me terribly. Always has. Even little stupid things like going to get something out of the car at night, in the dark, I get all flushed and excited, and in like "imagine I'm in a horror movie"-mode, hah. Like something could come and get me..and my hands get all shakey trying to fit the key in and I feel so vunerable and turned on..
Lol, embarrassing. XD
Crying turns me on a LOT, also. The whole feeling helpless thing, I guess..

Standard fantasies of mine are'nt all that creative, I guess.. being kidnapped and chained up in a dark, damp dungeon, with other slaves, having to watch all the things being done to them and know that I am next. Crying and screaming a lot, someones hands around my throat, being made to repeat humiliating things through my sobs or I'll be choked. And then.. the forced oral.. *Ahem*.
All in good fantasy, you know..

Randomly, my favourite masturbation material is "The Claiming of Sleeping Beauty". ;-)
Such a great book, it was the first "bdsm-ish" thing I ever read, at the time I did'nt really know the thoughts I had were so common, so it's sentimental to a degree.
I cut as part of self-pleasure, not every time, but most times.. I tie myself up usually, or at least gag myself (Kind of have a thing for being gagged). I kinda have to feel myself restrained to really get off.
I would call myself a masochist. Not crazy-hardcore, but there is no lying anymore about the fact that pain turns me on and hightens my orgasm tremendeously.

Ah ok that's so much more then you wanted to know about me. :-p
*goes back to lurking happily*..
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serious [27 May 2005|11:08pm]

[ mood | devious ]

sorry if the answers to these questions are actually quite blatant, but these questions have begun to haunt the deep catacombs of my head...

is it wrong to be intrigued by death?

is it wrong to be turned on by death?

is it wrong to fantasize about your own sweet death, even if you'll not attempt it?

is it wrong to fantasize about someone else's violent or erotic death, you as the murderer, even though you will
never attempt to actually kill the person?

is it wrong to fear yourself, when you know you're in control, but feel like any moment you could lose it?

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[27 May 2005|10:41pm]

[ mood | horny ]

this morning on the radio i heard this girl, about 22 yrs old, talking the dj about trying to find a new boyfriend who would cut of her foot so she could experience another extreme orgasm. her last boyfriend, after they had sex, was persuaded into cutting off her right pinkie toe because she just wasnt completely satisfied and had always had dreams since she was a little girl that she had lost one of her limbs. her byfriend cut off her toe, and the intense pain she experienced helped her reach her ultimate climax that simple sex could never achieve, then he left cuz he was creeped out. so she was on the air looking for a boyfriend who is willing to cut off her foot, no drugs or anything, and some way to stop the bleeding. she eventually wants to work her way up to cutting off her leg, and hopes her urges will be satisfied permanently after doing so, and if not is willing to cut off a few fingers. people who called in to talk to her about it were disgusted or freaked out and trying to talk her out of it, but all i could think was 'wow, i wish i was you'. i love pain, but im still at a lower level of pain, the kind from a sharpened blade against my skin, slicing over and over until a pool of blood forms, but not deep enough for stitches. and i cant hide them very easily so i am forced to stop and wait now for someone dominating and willing to hurt me, maybe beat me herself. but i must say i applaud this woman's courage to reach out for assistance over the radio, where so many opinionated people open their mouths. i wish i could be a part of her 'experiences', just to discover a new part of myself i dont yet know...

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[20 May 2005|03:48pm]

[ mood | dirty ]

Summer's come.. time to put away the blade and hide the evidence... :) but keep the pictures...>)

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Hello again [04 May 2005|04:16pm]

[ mood | blah ]

Well then I got a comment from someone on this community and I just tought I would share another poem with those who visit this community. Though I must say this is one lonly community. Anyways enjoy.

P.S. Sorry about the shitty html coding.

                           Sickly Enjoyable




Cold hands pressed upon your neck.

Imagine the pain that I could inflict.

The moment you stared into my eyes,

Is the moment that I decided you must DIE!


Slowly and deeply I enter your soul.

My passion and love cannot be controlled.

You beg and you scream.

You wake up, but I'm nowhere to be seen.


You heart is really beating

You find yourself to be bleeding

You know I’m the one you’re needing

I can see your enjoyment, which you are concealing


You lay back down in your cold sweat.

And you fall asleep with no regret.

You feel my lips kissing your chest

But you don’t wake up for you feel this is best.


Struggling in your sleep.

You feel it’s too much pleasure.

You find yourself gasping for air.

You know there’s no one better.


You start to scream again,

But you are not waking.

These screams are not of fear,

But of our overwhelmed lovemaking


I push, you bleed.

I slow it down,

But you push me to

A higher speed


You dig your nails

Into my skin.

Is this innocence or

Just a wonderful sin.

You finally awake

With nothing on, but a smile.

Your wonderful bliss lasted for hours,

But it only seemed like a little while.


You are weak,

But its finally day.

And you can’t wait until the next night

When I come back to play


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running.thoughts [27 Apr 2005|09:50pm]

my darkest thoughts come at nightwheni'mallalone. theyaregettingdeeperasthedaysgobyandifearimaysoonbeunabletocontrolthemandthisrealizationexcitesmeandscaresmetodeath,whichexcitesmetoo,butinafearfulway. i'msureotherpeoplehavehadthesethoughtsbeforebutmostofthemareprobablyondeathrowordoing20tolifeifyougetwhatimean. thesedeepthoughts...areunnaturaltosaytheleast. icannotspeaktoanyoneiknowbecausetheywouldn'tunderstand,theywouldjudgeandneverlookatmethesameanymore,youknowhowthatisright? iknowi'mnotalone,right...?
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[24 Apr 2005|11:32am]


Hello well I just joined this community a few moments ago. Not sure how many times I will post, but I will do my best. The last post made me questioned what I'm really into. I sense it, though it's not certain. Anyways I would like to share a poem with you all. I'm not sure why this came out of my mind, but I don't regret it or hide it. I'm only left in wonder. I wrote it a like 2 weeks back. Hope you enjoy...

Masochistic MasterCollapse )

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I'm new! Say hi to me! [17 Apr 2005|10:22pm]

Okay. So I just joined this community. My name is Lindsay, I'm 22, and here's my storyCollapse )
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[07 Apr 2005|11:18pm]

[ mood | horny ]

i ahte summer... no more excuses to wear warm clothing to hide the evidence of your exotic night before... it's getting too hot to hide the cuts on my arms and shoulders, but i cant go too long without feeling the blade slice my flesh. i love it so. damn the sun!

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[13 Mar 2005|01:10pm]

So I actually got accepted to model for suicidegirls.com - I must be a bandwagon whore because I didn't think I could get in and then BAM I passed the application and they liked me... I have to do a photoset and send in my ID and I'm good to go. I don't care about the money, it's simply being a Suicide Girl that rocks my world... It's great you don't have to a barbie girl to be a porn star...

anyhow I brought with my some pictures, and they contain mild pornographic material... ive been warned, let me look!Collapse )
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[07 Mar 2005|08:36am]

[ mood | horny ]

Ah me. The few posts in here. I makes me sad to see how few people post in here. I maitain we need someone to promote and make banners ( I can't, I am a bit computer illiterate. If I could, I would though.) Anywho.

I am back my loves

I shall start posting again. I was uhm...deatained for the most part of the last several months and have only recently been allowed back on the computer or home alone for extended periods of time. But now, I am back! I will post and promote and all that good stuff. Anyway.

My bit to add to this is:

I was with my boyfreind on Satuday evening and he gave me my first ever orgasm with another human being. OH yes. He is excellent in bed. Yes, yes he is.

Thats all for now.

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[15 Feb 2005|07:43pm]

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[13 Feb 2005|11:38pm]
aim: wackobrunete 18/m/mi im really horny so im me now!

i have pics.
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[06 Feb 2005|08:41pm]

[ mood | lonely ]

ive been so lonely! all my friends dont seem to be into pain (receiving or inflicting) especially the girls, the only ones i want to hurt me.. it really sucks!
but happy to hear some you have been having quite the experiences lately. :)

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[04 Feb 2005|03:28pm]

Well, I bought a semi-decent new webcam with my last paycheck. it goes without saying that I now cannot afford my cellphone bill, but with my3pagefiction whoring around with her webcam pictures, I knew I had to keep up and so, although it isn't much I bring with me 4 new pictures...

...but you never really listenedCollapse )

Xposted to __toxicromance vampygirls darkfetishes
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Coming soon [04 Feb 2005|12:04am]

[ mood | drained ]

I'll have a lot of things coming your way tomorrow. I wanted to have it done tonight, but with an unexpected homework assignment and job interview, I didn't get to this or my personal journal.

So, over the weekend my fetish dictionary, new pictures and three detailed stories will be posted. Keep an eye out kiddos.

You fearless fetish leader,

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[30 Jan 2005|10:38pm]

I am a sadist at heart, though only one of my friends believes me when I say this. Whenever I makeout with my boyfriend I usually scratch him or bite him, or some other such thing. Unfortunately he is a wimp, but I still love him. Slowly he is accepting the fact that if he is going to go out with me, hes going to have to deal with some pain.
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